deep thoughts

so i haven't posted in awhile......i've been meaning to- really, i have!- but school seems to have other ideas about how i spend my time. the good news- only 17 days of class left!! (and then finals...boo!)

you know how i complain about lyme disease? well, i know of a certain, important person, in my life who's struggling with something much, much worse- cancer. and i hate that i can't do anything to help her except just be a supportive niece. i hate that cancer seems to have "picked" our family to attack- robyn is the 3rd person in my family to be diagnosed with it. i hate that we all have to watch her battle this, and remember the battle my grandma lost to this same stupid disease. why does it always pick the good people? the people that have so much love to give and lessons to teach and stories to tell? why can't it attack the terrorists, the really bad people in the world?

i know that her chances of becoming a survivor are greatly increased compared to what my grandma's were...but it still scares me shitless. i just don't want to lose anyone else in my family so young.