happy 2011!

well, i'm a little behind on the whole *happy new year* stuff, but there it is. i haven't really felt like blogging for awhile, but i'm making myself talk about stuff i'm feeling cause it's all a jumble and not making sense...ish. so here goes.

i'm not ready to go back to winona. there. i said it. i'm not really looking forward to this semester, mostly 'cause my schedule/classes aren't exactly what i wanted. but that's over- i can change it if i want to, but for now it's staying the way it is and i'm just gonna have to deal.

i'm also realizing how much i LOVE being home. really- i do. no one was more surprised than me when i got seriously homesick before thanksgiving break. i missed my family, my dog, my boyfriend, the security and comfort of home. i thought it would get better over christmas. wrong. now, here i am, only 2 days away from going back, and i still feel like it's the first day of break. yes, i get annoyed with my family. yes, there are times when i want to go back to living on my own. but no, i don't want to go back. i think part of it was that i spent soooo much time in my dorm room that that's all i'm remembering- that small space with only one window and my desk. i'm going to try to study in other places- the lounge, the basement, the commons, kryszko, the library. somewhere with more light and less distractions.


HOWEVER, when i break down the semester, i'll be at school for less than 5 months. and i'll be home at least once a month. and d said that he's gonna come visit more often. we'll see how well that works once spring planting gets underway and he's back to working 50-60 hours a week plus going to school. *sigh*

that's all for now. next stop- BED.