icky. =(

this past week has been a struggle- i'm not feeling 100%- heck, i'd take feeling 65% right now, but it just isn't working. i've been really tired the last few days and can't find the energy to do what i need to. my stomach has been feeling funny too- hungry, but when i eat i feel sick. i'm trying really really hard to eat better- more fruits and less chocolate and pop- but i dunno if that's working or not. half the time i can't tell if i'm hungry or gonna throw up (haven't yet, thank goodness). i'm achy too, so i think the weather's gonna change here soon.

i just have one, little, tinsy, tiny question: CAN I FEEL BETTER ALREADY?!?!?! (pretty please with sugar on top? thanks.) that's really all i want for christmas- to feel BETTER. and not have the one step up and 5 steps back thing goin' on. seriously- it sucks! either let me feel better and keep improving, or make me feel worse and keep it that way- one or the other! i would, of course, prefer to feel better, but i hate this constant tug-of-war. just pick one already.